Welcome to the New Year! 2018!! Say what??
As I was listening to KLove today, I hear January described as the most depressing month of the year. I am not feeling that this year.
Last year (2017) was a rough year for me. I felt like I had a mental breakdown and that affected every aspect of my life. I was deep in a depressive pit. My anxiety wasn’t allowing me sleep. I was a wreck. But I tried many things to help and by September/October, I finally made enough changes that I could see a positive change in my health.
I tried to take back charge of our finances and what happened!?!?! Everything broke! Cars, appliances, legal bills, so much that my Dave Ramsey emergency fund just laughed.
I started Bible studies and then dropped out of them.
We had lots of farming disasters.
Riley started our local community college classes and it was so hard to manage three different grade levels. My mental capacity was gone.
That year is over. I ended up seeing that God brought me to my knees to realize I am not enou
gh. But He is. He is with me through all of this. And all this is part of his creative story for my life. I say creative because everything He does, does not fit into man’s idea of how it should be done but so much more!
As I reflected on the season of Christmas, the Son of God did not come to earth in a glorious , kingly way. He came down in the most humblest of ways. Born to a single teenager in a stinky smelly stable. If God can save the world in the most creative way, I am going to let him work his ways in my life too. It will be in a way I don’t imagine but I am going to trust his ways.
I ended up finishing the Bible study I dropped out of 6 months before. And do you know the title? It was called “The Woman who wouldn’t Quit.” How ironic. And I learned so much through it. I want to do it again!
Finances still are not good but it has encouraged me to teach biblical personal finances to the kids this year. I wish I had something like that when I was growing up.
Riley finished her two college classes and finished strong. We learned so much about areas I haven’t been a good teacher and learned that she works harder for teachers other than her mother! So we’ll keep her in a couple of those classes each semester.
Disasters are part of farming and I’ve researched some possible solutions.
I took a few days off between the holidays to reflect on our year and things we learned and now I know what to focus on for the next year.
I am truly excited for on the New Year!!!