Purpose, Joy, Abundance
These are my words to remember in 2018.
The year 2017 was covered by a black cloud of depression and anxiety. I have struggled with it since becoming parent to my special needs son and have had it under control for the last 10 years. But in 2017, the words to describe my year were – worry, shortcomings, fear, not measuring up. Thankfully, I was able to make several changes and ended the year in a good place.
Along with this, I started a new Bible study – the title spoke to me so I bought it – “Proven – Where Christ’s Abundance meets our Greatest Need.” I have always felt that I’ve had to prove myself. In all areas of my life – wife, mom, homeschool teacher, friend, daughter in law, good citizen – the list goes on. My WORK measures who I am.
The study open with the “Fullfilled.” Hard word. Am I??? Do I believe that God wants me to be fulfilled and happy here on earth? And to have an abundant life? What do those words mean? Do I feel it?? Has my life become a DUTY?
Jennie Allen goes on to talk about how Jesus had purpose and joy and this affected everything he did! Those words hit me hard. Purpose AND joy. Here on earth.
Later on she shares John 10 “9 I am the door; if anyone enters through Me, he will be saved, and will go in and out and find pasture. 10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.
11 “I am the good shepherd; the good shepherd lays down His life for the sheep.
Jesus gives us life ABUNDANTLY. We HAVE it if we take it.
The thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy – my life, my joy, my purpose, my abundance.
My job is to trust and rest. He has me. I need to breathe in trust, rest, and peace. And breathe out fear, striving and worry. As I do this regularly throughout my day, He will refill me with his Joy.
BUT this is not saying that I should just sit and breathe. I have a PURPOSE. What is it?
Each one of us has a different purpose in this world. We all may be wives and mothers which is FULL of purpose. But we all have an individualized purpose too. And each of us have the freedom for those purposes to be different.
As I’ve been journaling and reading and listening to podcasts, I’m finding and redefining my purpose. I know I am at the right place because so many things are shouting at me. The same things.
These words of the Lord motivate me. From Deuteronomy 31:6 “The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you or forsake you. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged.”
And found in 2 Corinthians 4:7 “We have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and is not from us.”